The past few months doesn't matter. It literally flew by just like that.

But the past two weeks have been hell for me. I swear never in my life have I cried so hard, so much. It's just, you never fully appreciate what you've got until it's gone. I can barely express how I feel with words. But to say that I had my heart torn into a million pieces is only an understatement.

But I've made a vow to myself to not cry anymore. I know it's for the best. To every problem is a solution - and crying is not it. I'm just trying my best to help with the situation right now. Hopefully all our sweat and tears are worth it. And every situation has a brighter side to it, and I have chosen to look at that side, and not dwell on the negative anymore.

Like what they say, whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right? I believe that if you have faith and keep praying, everything will be alright. The one thing this whole situation has taught me is that I have great friends, and for that I'm grateful. I never fully appreciated it, and this situation has definitely taught me to appreciate people around me more.

And the thing is that I've never really respected a person this much before. You tell me, which teenager moves all the way across the world to go through four hard-ass years of training so that their family could live better lives? What kills me the most is that FOUR freaking years of training can end in four days just like that. I guess it's just life.

Well, when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade, right? :) I know things will get better, I know they will. Having faith makes me look at life in a whole new perspective. It's definitely refreshing. I have never been so contented in my life before :) It's just funny how just a week ago I was crying like a baby and now I have never been happier.

Jay Park, please don't give up because we're anticipating a really great comeback. And most importantly, we always got your back :)

fangirling!

Do not read. This is a waste of time.

Because my super good Korean friend is not online and I have no one to rant to, so naturally this is the place I come to.


Oh look, yay, Jae Bum is dancing!

But wait, I can't bring myself to tell you how sexy he looks because every time I watch this video, all I see is HyunAh, HyunAh and more HYUNAH (more like hyena hehehehe). If you can see me through that computer screen then you'll be able to tell that I'm turning green with envy -_-

And HONESTLY, I am being 100% honest, its not like she can't dance, its just that she doesn't deserve all the credit that they give her! Yes, she can dance, but she's not an AWESOME dancer or anything. And yes, to be dancing next to Jay you HAVE to be a FANTASTIC dancer.

Oh yeah, and this is what I got off the internet. I don't wanna take credit for it because its so funny but its true! okay so, HyunAh is from this new girl group 4 Minute right, and and, I read this somewhere:

"4 Minute is only lucky that their fame is lasting longer than their name."

HEHEHEHE. Whoever wrote this I completely agree!

and lets be honest. Jay completely outdanced HyunAh. And DAMN my boy can shake his thang! It looked better when he was doing it compared to when HyunAh was doing it. Bleh.

Whatever it is I still want to MURDER her -_- OH OH and the beginning of the dance was a total ripoff off SYTYCD! Stupid useless untalented bitch can't even choreograph her own dances -_- and that dance she was doing with Jay? It just screams S-L-U-T.

The thing that makes me feel better is that she can't sing for nuts. She sounds like a bloody chipmunk.

THERE. I feel much better now. and HyunAh, HANDS OFF MY MAN!

Hottest time of the day.

So I know I haven't been blogging. But it'll come soon, I promise :)

Anyways,


for my own viewing pleasure :)

If you're up for a good dance routine, then watch it. It might not be to your liking but my oh my, my boys are looking mighty fine :) Something about this just makes me want to watch it over and over again.

oh and btw, Jae Bum, the guy in black, he breakdances, speaks perfect English & he krumps. He has an eight(!) pack which makes him extra sexy and he's super humble! hehehe I'm in love :)

I know this is super pointless and sorry I just wasted your time :)

Turn Right

Here's to all you Jonas Brothers fans,
Even to non-JB fans, give it a try, it might just change your mind :)
Its so amazing because, this song is everything I want to say.
So this is dedicated to those who've been having a hard time lately.
This one's called "Turn Right".

Pick up all your tears
Throw 'em in your back seat
Leave without a second glance
Somehow I'm to blame
For this never-ending racetrack you call life

So turn right
Into my arms
Turn right
You won't be alone
You might fall off this track sometime
Hope to see you on the finish line

You're driving all your friends out
You just be, you cannot follow
And soon you will be on your own
Somehow I'm to blame
For this never-ending racetrack you call life

So turn right
Into my arms
Turn right
You won't be alone
You might fall off this track sometime
Hope to see you on the finish line

I did all I could
I gave everything
But you had to go your way
And that road was not for me

So turn right
Into my arms
Turn right
You won't be alone
You might fall off this track sometimes
Hope to see you on the finish line

"Sometimes in life it's better to keep things black and white instead of screwing things up with colour." - Nick Jonas

Thank you Nick Jonas for making my day :)

Am here!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH HelloYellowMellowJambos!

WARNING:Do not read if you aren't in any sense lame.

Chloe's right nextz to me right now,in fact she's staying over for today.We've been playin n lazing around for the wholez day.Who knew it was possible to feel tired even when you don't do much horh.Chloe claims she's not tired tho.So its just me larh.

Shoutout to Na,Wind & Krys,we mizzzzz youu veli muchz!~

Imma post something Chloe's fond of.hmphh.

KimHyunJoong's Interview

IS: Is there a place you’d particularly like to go on vacation? Who do you want to go with?
KHJ: I’ve lived by Songpa-gu since I was young. They’re friends that I’ve spent most of my life with. I fear nothing when I’m with these friends. I want to go on a vacation to outer space with my friends and take on a new challenge against the limitations of life. Has this become too unbelievable?…

Hehehehhehehhehehezzzz farny?

NO?

Thought so..

happy now Chloe?

We're going to turn off the comp nowz,its been too longz.ciaoozz.

Amanda Kerby!

I absolutely love, LOVE this girl. Her dancing is so captivating, and she somehow sorta reminds me of people like Allison Holker and Katee Shean :) I can see her going very far :)

ok, proper updates very very soooooon :)